**Cold, Cold Day**

 

Morning everyone!!

hope everyone is have a good week so far..

I went to Natwest and I got my account, debit account, so its a start

So that's cool :) It has been so cold its unreal, and just now I have been getting

into a bad routine by staying up real late and sleeping all morning and some of the afternoon..

So it got to 5am this morning and I thought stuff it I'm gonna stay up all day

and go to bed early tonight to get back into a *normal routine*

*hopefully*

 

I'm trying to stop myself from feeling really down and even more depressed rite now.

I hate it!! but there is nothing I can do I need to try and keep my head up and

think positive.. *sometimes easier said than done*

I dunno what it is at the moment I just feel like well like shit really,

I wish I dint, I do have depression and anxiety (that's two of the reasons I'm signed on to ESA)

I really dunno where I'm going with this I feel very lifeless the

last few days that's why I haven't been on here much.

*I dunno if anyone reads my blog anyway, I see people come on here oh I dunno lol*

when I use to feel down or something wasn't rite I use to head straight to my craft room

and scarp about it about anything just chill out

to Rod Stewart at the same time.. rite now its a bit hard to do that :)

I have not received any stash yet from all the kind people on UKS that have offered to help me out

*I'm not moaning, please don't think I am, I'm just saying*

So I'm still awaiting on that,

 

ITS CHRISTMAS!!

is it?

where?

really?

I dunno you tell me I'm trying to get a loan to have a Christmas,

I have been accepted for a little loan from the JC but that's for the things I need like

clothes and furniture, dunno what furniture or how many clothes they expect me to get

on £243 but hey once I got the bed I think ill be able to get socks lol

*once again not moaning just saying, should we just call it blubbering*

*just because I can and maybe I need to, you tell me?*

Just tell me to shut up at any time please, just push the big *X* at the top of the screen

and ill be gone ha-ha,

wish I could *X* out of my head sometimes :)

 

And then there's my cat Minxy,

of course you know we are going to spend *Christmas* with my family

and Minxy will have to stay here as my family all have dogs and its too far to take her,

Dean our other housemate was meant to be looking

after the little moo,

he promised us he will look after her including:

- Feeding *3 times a day, half meat half biscuit's*

- Changing the litter in the tray everyday *twice if needed*

- She sleeps in his room over night *she does with us and she loves her cuddles at night*

- Lots of cuddles oh and clean water twice a day!

I thought that was standard? *maybe its just me*

he was the one that offered to look after her *remember this*

 

I was talking to Trish *housemate* one night and

she told me she needs to tell me because its not fair *so I was like tell me what?*

Dean said to her *about me and Kieran* he said

"they best not ask me to look after there fucking cat, as I will not"

Yeah? right?

and.

"If they do she ain't sleeping in my room she stinks she can stay in the hallways of the house!"

EXCUSE ME!!

 

Yeah ok, when we first got Minxy she did have a smelly bum but that was

because her first owner did not look after her rite or feed her rite,

so its ok now.

fair enough if he don't want her sleeping in her room

*he use to have a cat, lets Minxy and Oscar in his room every day,

OH and Oscar use to sleep in his room every so often*

HMM..

So I don't mind if he told us this but no, he OFFERED to look after my baby girl

and said she will sleep in his room etc. BLAR BLAR BLAR!!

why lie?

Kieran asked him he said Trish is making it up,

came down stairs shouting at Trish trying to intimidate her

*dint work, I was there*

He said he dint say none of that.

I said to him *did you say that you will not have my cat in your room that she will be sleeping in the house in the hallways*

he said YES that's what he said??

ermm

is it just me or did he just come storming and shouting down the stairs to prove he dint

say it and then just admit it straight away?

*Strange*

but he seemed to think that was ok so I told him to leave me alone.

 

And that was it, no one has mentioned it since..

so what do I do?, I don't want Minxy all alone not at all,

I had a feeling he lied before,

as me and Kieran went to Westfest in October *Its a big Rave*

and Dean was meant to look after the little Moo

when we got back at around 7 or 8am

Minxy was downstairs all on her own, really meowing she was shaking and so hungry

*I dint think that was rite, but we put it down to it being her first night without us*

Trish told us that dean left her in the hallway all night

and I don't even think he fed her..

**I know lots of blubbering**

 

I don't know.. am I over reacting to that? I just don't know

can I trust him?

can I leave my little girl with him?

*what other option do I have thou? none*

its been really getting to me.

 

I dunno I'm gonna go ring around my old support worker (for recovery)

and a few other places

as I got a tribunal coming up soon with the Job centre

as I failed my medical

*but they are failing EVERYONE*

but I have appealed it and all the paper work from them came in the post

yesterday with the Job Centres case

and it has really got to me, I'm really worried about it I really am!!

*AGHHH*

So I am ringing round everyone that I have worked with E.G

Support Worker

Recovery Agency

Doctor

Etc...

to ask them to write a letter about me and my troubles or whatever

whatever they know really I have never lied so all the letters/notes

from these people should help me, I hope!

 

Oh and at 4pm I have an appointment with my new support worker

YAY!!

 

Enough blubbering for one day

I will try and pop back later and be a bit more positive

*I hope*

 

Take Care

Leanne

xXx 

 

 

**Another Step Forward, Hopefully**

 

Merry Monday to everyone!!

Im hoping today in another step forward a step towards

what I need and want to sort myself out,

I use to have a bank account with Santander but a few years back

they gave me an overdraft without telling me

I never knew because I always just use to go to the shop and when my card declined

the payment I would go see how much I had,

but this time it did not stop but I only went over by like £15/£20 MAX

but then they add charges on again and again and again.

I made an agreement with them so I pay £5 off a month as I was in a homeless hostel

and on job seekers, They said they will freeze the changes

till I have paid it. They did freeze the charges

for 3 MONTHS!!!

I was told they would be froze till I pay it off but when they say I owe them nearly £300

and I pay £5 a month for 3 months, even I know that don't add up!!

So still to this day I owe them that and we all know it would have gone up a lot more now.

I do plan to sort it after Christmas but they have to give me time

im not made of money!!

 

Until then I do need a bank account and Netwest said they will open me

an account if I take in my birth certificate along with all my other ID.

I got home that day to find my BC missing!!

It was only a copy because a few years back the Job Centre LOST

my original BC :(

So my mum came to the rescue with a copy, but now this one is missing..

But guess who came to the rescue this time??

That's it my mum, it came through the post on Saturday

So now im going to go to Netwest and hope they will stick to there word??

will they?

I dunno, I hope so!!

Will be back later to let you know..

Fingers crossed people!!

 

Hope you all have a brill Monday!!

 

Keep Smiling, Take Care

xXx Leanne xXx

**Can Anyone help?**

  

Hey Peoples!!

 

I just went to install the programs for my camera on my laptop

and when i went to use the Olympus Studio 2

It would not let me as the trail has ran out?

 

I tried clicking the - Buy Now - Button but it took me to the

Olympus homepage but I could not for the life of me find what i was looking for

I just want to know how much it is for when I have the money spare to get it?

Can anyone help me with this at all?

 

 

I woke up at 7am this morning to the cat purring in my ear AGAIN!!

the little moo..

I'm doing some voluntary work today, Its for the food bank here,

As when we had no money at all even thou I dint want to go

But they helped us with a load of food and I can

never thank them enough.

 

So I decided to do some voluntary work for them every so often when they need it.

So I best go get ready then ain't I?

 

I would be so grateful if any of you could help me with my little problem at the top?

Hope you have a good day!

 

Keep Smiling, Take Care

xXx Leanne xXx



**Just Adorable**

 

Wow all I can say is this is so cute look what I found in the Sun newspaper today

don't know if any of you saw it but here is a couple of pictures from it and the link to the article.

its the pedigree chimp!!

 

 

 

Its adorable isn't it?

here is a link to the article if any of you are interested .. bless them ..

 

Click me!!

 

 

So, for those of you that have been asking me I did get my camera and

I am so happy I have started snapping away

at the cats, when I get some pictures on the laptop I will

share them its so good to have it back.

I cant wait to take it down to see my family for Christmas.

We have got Kieran's dad Dave staying with us for a few days

its good to see him, hope your chest gets better soon Dave xXx

 

I have got so many ideas going through my mind for cards and scrapbook

pages, I cant wait to get some stash, I have had a few great people

on UKS offer to help me out with some stash

I am so grateful for everyone's help..

I cant wait to receive the bits and get started!!

So now I got my camera and stash on its way I'm getting back to myself!!

Bring it on!!

 

Right I'm off for a nice relaxing bath and a Horlicks.

Keep Smiling, Take Care

xXx Love Leanne xXx

 

**Losing A Housemate, Gaining Oscar**

 

I had a chat with my housemate last night, She has informed me

that she has been looking for a new place to live,

She wants her own place again and wants to be independent.

So fair play to her I wish her all the luck.

She told me she went to see a flat/bedsit in town (Only about 10/15 mins walk away)

Its actually the place me and Kieran looked at the same day we looked

at this place before we moved here,

So I know where it is and what its like,

Its small very small but it will be ok for one person,

She also told me that she wont be allowed to take Oscar (the ginger & white cat)

** For those of you that don't know its only Minxy that is our cat**

And said she would have to rehome him!

I stopped her there..

The thought of splitting up Minxy & Oscar is heart breaking as it is,

the cats are best mates / lovers

they love each other, they wait for each other every morning,

depending who wakes up first the cat waits at the door for the other one to come out

Minxy goes mad every morning to go see Oscar

and same for him...

I could not split them up myself it would be too painful :(

So I stopped her there and asked where Oscar is going to go,

she told me her care/support worker might

have him if not she will have to rehome him..

(NO!)

I was not having that I told her we would have Oscar (without even asking Kieran HA)

I cant split them two up would be like splitting up Ant & Dec

**Its just not rite**

So when she moves we will be having Oscar, least we all know

he will be happy, settled, looked after & loved

She might be moving before Christmas if not it will be just after.

so we will be losing a housemate/friend but gaining Oscar..

I don't mind I'm happy about keeping Oscar here I hate the idea

of keeping them two apart its just, its not fair.

I will still she Trish at her new place or she will still come here,

so she will still see Oscar..

 

Okay!! it is very late I need to get up early tomorrow

as I got to get a train and go get my camera!!

**Woopieeee**

So I'm off to make a yummy Horlicks and get some zzz's

 

Keep Smiling, Take Care

xXx Love Leanne xXx

 

 

 



** Kind People**

 

All the lovely people on UKS are still as I remember

Lovely!! very kind!! and well really supportive

I was a bit on edge about opening up and telling people where I went wrong

but I'm glad I did I don't want to be acting like I'm someone I'm not

I am who I am I have made a few mistakes and took the wrong path at times

but I am still me I'm back to myself now.

 

I have nothing against anyone who thinks bad of me for opening up on here

and telling people what I went through,

I understand all the bad words and thoughts you have had towards me

but I use to think what your thinking so I am not gonna let

any one get to me who is trying to make me feel bad for talking openly

on my own blog :)

so if you don't like me or what I have done and don't want to give me a

chance then don't read my blog, don't follow me like you say..

that's your choice people and I have nothing against your choice :)

I just hope you never make mistakes like I did.

 

But now back to the kind people on UKS

I asked for help to get back to crafting and the UKS members

have offered to help me, I am so grateful to them

it means so much to me that people are willing to help and that they have taken time

to come and read my blog to get to know me, and leaving

such kind, thoughtful and inspirational words and comments,

it really helps me get back on my feet and when I'm feeling down

I will go back to them words and remember all the support. 

So I just want to say a big thank you to all of you!!

 

I am so looking forward to tomorrow as I get my camera back YAY!!

at the moment my camera is in the worse place ever,

CASH CONVERTERS!!

The biggest con place going but I put it in there just under a year ago

when I had no money but because I had a habbit I never had the money spare

to get it out as I when I put it in there I asked for

£120 of them on buy back

so that meant to keep it in there every month I had to pay £39

to keep it of pay £169 to get it out but back then I never had the money spare

to get it out so I had to do whatever I could to carry it over another month

but fair play to my fiancé as he made sure every month that

we had the money to keep it.

But now I have the money to get it out!! YES at last!!

I cant wait to get my Olympus E420!!

I got it for my 18th birthday from my family, So I felt so bad

for putting it in cashys that's why I did not tell my family that it was in there

my mum knew (after a while) but I did not want my nan or my auntie knowing

but now I am getting it out we can take it down to see them

for Christmas and get some new pictures,

and get some pictures of me and my partner, as we have no

Pictures of us together yet!!

So I cant wait to get it tomorrow...

 

I will take some pictures soon and share them with you

Keep Smiling, Take Care

xXx Leanne xXx

 

 



** Back On UKS**

 

I am so glad I am back on UKS, After all this time I cant wait to get back into

Card making & Scrapbooking :D I love it I need to get started soon

I got itching feet (or should I say fingers ha ha)

its time to set my head to it get some great blogging going on

and get back to myself..

I started Card Making & Scrapbooking around 5 years ago, but because of all the

things that have happened in my life the last couple of years

I have not been able to do my crafting and I miss it.. oh I miss it so much

I use to love it I still do, I just need to get a new stash and start again really.

Now that I am settled in a new home with my partner I need to

get back to crafting I use to spend so much time

doing all sorts of crafty little things

trying now LO's and just trying new things altogether like boxes, books

candles and well just anything I could play around with and make look better

more interesting even with just a little bit of glitter

or ribbon.. oh I miss is so much I have to get back to it soon I really do

its like a whole part of my life missing ha ha

sounds mad huh?

if your a crafter you will understand you actually do get itchy hands :D

 

Im gonna go look around at some great crafty blogs I have found

bye for now bloggers!!

 

Keep Smiling, Take Care

 

xXx Leanne xXx